First off, I'm incredibly privileged to even have this "problem", and I'm sure many of you accessories collectors are just as fortunate, too. Have you ever found a bag that was extremely amazing, and you had to get it? But when you got home, there was something that just made you a little unsure about keeping it?

Do you ever navigate to a website that either sells or blogs about bags to just drool at the pictures? About six months ago, I did just that as I scoured the web for my next handbag purchase. Usually I know when it is "The Bag" when over two months pass by and I'm still opening the bookmarked bag page whenever I have free time. In the past, I've made too many mistakes with impulse purchases, and I vowed never to put myself in that place again. Though, I will admit some of them were fabulous...

After saving for a good while and then purchasing the Balenciaga Papier A4 bag, I was ecstatic but also incredibly skeptical. I was yearning for a piece that would satiate all the bag-wants that I've had for a while.

A nude or creme color? Check. Soft, buttery leather? Check. Minimalistic? Check. And it didn't hurt at all that it smelled like the inside of a new car. Just amazing. In fact, I would walk around my apartment carrying the bag to see if I really liked it. Back and forth, back and forth from mirror to mirror. And I did a lot of bag-smelling. It was clear that Balenciaga uses the finest quality leathers. I can still think of the smell if I close my eyes and recall hard enough.

But carrying it around didn't help the fact that there wasn't something right about it. I didn't have totally good vibes about the purchase. The bag handles were a little too short for my muscly arms, fostered by a little too much tennis. And one of the handles kept slipping off, even when I had the bag filled with my laptop and other heavy accouterments.

In addition, I was very hesitant about purchasing a soft, light leather bag. The leather was so smooth that it could easily get scratched. I'm very careful with my bags, but I know that even the slightest mark (whether it be from pen or from some other source) would bother me. I tend to purchase darker bags because of possibilities like this.

Though I have those reservations, I do enjoy the experience of an aging bag. For instance, I look forward to the patina that will appear on my Vuitton bags (Speedy, Neverfull, etc.). After all, it is all about the journey of the piece itself.

I look forward to purchasing an all-leather Celine Mini Luggage in the future, and as much as I know I will baby it, the bag will get scratches. As Céline Creative Director Phoebe Philo stresses, it is all part of your bag's story.

I promised myself to not let light hues deter me anymore, but I will need to purchase some sort of hardened or pebbled leather in order to minimize potential damages.

For one week, I went back and forth between keeping and returning it. I still had that feeling in my gut that something wasn't right, so it was clear what decision I needed to make.

The most important thing is that you are in love with your bag, and that you have no buyer's remorse. That, by far, is the worst feeling. No one should be spending that much money on a bag with which they are only half in love. And that was my case with this beautiful Papier tote.

On a positive note, one thing I don't have now is returner's remorse.

Do you have a bag lust-and-loss story? For anyone that owns lighter bags, what advice would you give to others that are hesitant to buy because of the maintenance? If you've ever gotten anything on a light bag that you own, how did you clean it?

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